Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I AM NOT AS STRONG AS WHAT PPL THINK!!!!!!
I hope i wont become like that!After these few days of controling myself and trying to adjust my mood, today i finally break down........ no longer can i take it anymore. Alway trying to relax and tell myself not to think about it but is not possible. Somemore mood not good, then like everyone in my family like my enemy le cos I quarrel with my mum( big time)..... this time i am not going to care so much le! Then my brother being an ass hole, come n shout at me when i am telling him something nicely. WTH la F*** la just dun care about me n leave me alone can u my mum n bro! I seriously tell u i am officially break down le I am not superman. I am human being. I finally can take it no more! I am going to close myself up from today , cos i hate my life and i have problem with myself. THE DAM WORLD IS BLOODLY UNFAIR!
Labels: Nothing is fair
8:00 AM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
DATE:27-09-08
Mood: :(
TOday,My Frens fetch me to east coast park to shan xin but sorry to u guys, i kind of spoil the mood of everybody. Then went to eat subway but end up only frens eat but not me!! Then we head down to bishan to do some prawning which is fun and boring at the same time......HAHA cos they spend $30 dollars for 3 hours and only manage catch a few. So they is like eating 2 prawns for 30 dollars haha! I was like force to go so i sit at one corner watch soccer match and think about stuff..
Reach home 4am then got soccer match next day Sianzzzzzzzz
Labels: My heart is broken and gone missing
11:19 PM
Date:26-09-08
Mood: dam sad and emo
Everything has ended and was like a blow to me. Was happy when girl msg me in the morning but when i was going for presentation i saw my msn pop up and is girl msn. Never did i know she is going to break up with me. So when i saw that, my heart sank to the deepest and i did not do the presentation for my project and i leave the class. Maybe is the rite thing that let the silly girl go cos it seem like she is suffering when she is with me. NO one is at fault and neither is she. For all i know, she is happy now without me and should i say is a good thing. I rather see the gal that i love happy then she suffer so end up i choose to take on all the pain. Love is always like that, unpretictable but one thing for sure, my heart is still occupier by the silly girl!
SHit, now that i had fall badly, i have to pick myself up and i swear, i hate this dam feeling. Is totally killing me. I nv eat for 2 days and i only sleep like 4 hours in 2 days WTH wat is wrong with me. BUT wait a min, i saying all these is not that i wan ppl to pity me. I just wan u guys to know, i am picking myself up and is going to take a long time so sorry for the unhappiness that I cause to my frens.
I realised my frens r really true frens cos they kept me company the whole nite on friday. u guys rock!:) (u know who u r) ANW LITTLE DEVIL thanks for giving me a wonderful memories!
Labels: I nv blame u for anything and all i can say is as long as u r happy, I will take all the shit just cos I LOVE U, Liang xiao pang
11:00 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
GIRL DUN MAKE ME WORRY K, Tell me anything that bother U!
i hope we can be as lovely as this toutoise couple:)I am not a not understanding bf and baby I hate to force things out from u cos i know u dun like the feeling of being force! I wan u to know, u can feel free to tell me anything and I feel bad of telling mabel small little things that actually can settler with u. I realised is my fault and also maybe cos that time i talk to u and u started to be very angry and started crying make me fear to tell u things cos i cant bear to c u cry anymore cos i really love u alot! ( there is y i dun wan to tell u but i will learn to tell u )
Baby can promise me, next time there is anything bothering u, tell me k cos i dun wan to get angry or should i say feeling dam pissed that i dun know what is wrong with u, without knowing the truth which I think is not fair for u!! Really!!! I wan this realtionship to last and i hope our commuication and understanding about each other can be better so that we will have less quarral or should i say totally none:) I will promise u, I will let u know and we will settler our relationship things on our own k. I hope after this, our relationship will be stronger and better..... For now, I just can HOPE FOR THE BEST AND PREPARE FOR THE WORST! Baby u should know that i really dun wan the worst to happen:) I LOVE U TO THE FURTHEREST EXTEND
I will not bear to c u taking the whole load of problem onto urself, let me share the load with u k baby??
Labels: Loving someone no need much reason cos u just love the person
7:56 AM
Monday, September 22, 2008
SCH sucks, I promise u, RP system may seem to be slack but everyday have to go sch, make me hate sch.... I had long ago, lost that motivation to sch le but still have to. Anw thought wat my fren say is true, sch life is better than work life cos once u start working , cannot anyhow skip work but for sch is different:) at least that make me feel better.
This gal nv fail to make me smile and feel better each day. Since the day i know her, i realised, life is not about money, sch, work but is about spending each and every singal day with her and loving her whole heartedly. She had always be the energy of my life. :) Everytime i c her, I just wan to tell her how much I love her.........
8:26 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Oh NO! cant wake up for church again! Dam it! Work till 3am last nite and slept late, resulting in overslept......
I created my blog last night when I was working:) tis show that my work is super slack de cos i got free time to do all these stuff haha!! anw not very good at blogging stuff so i asked my baby(little devil) to help me with it. She is so nice to help me change the blog skin and help me add those necessary stuff on the blog. Thank you baby I love you
My life is full of colour since the day I met you and you never fail to make my day.
3:34 AM